So my ex husband asked me yesterday if i was in a lesbian relationship because my good friend stays over a couple times a week. She lives with her sister in Queen Creek but works and socializes in Mesa. I could not believe he was serious. He was though. I guess that would be his excuse to himself why I would deny a date with him the last few weeks. He does not understand why I think he is "bad", his words not mine.
I have told him I think he is selfish and a liar. I don't trust him and really don't think I ever would again. But he tells me he has changed. He has changed by getting a lap band and losing weight but still goes out all the time and can't manage money to save his life, he doesn't like to be alone and complains how the kids annoy him. But why can't we get back together? Really I enjoy my life. As crazy as it can be at times.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
words
lips, nose, cheeks, brush, eyes, smile, wanting, butterflies, yearning, desire, cute, no, really, why, when, cute, nice, please, hour, tired, wishing, kiss, arms, straight, smells, dirt, time, late, home, cold, movie, tired, sleep, light, phone, off, tears.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Age is just a Number!
My birthday is a week away. I have been up and down about growing a year older because I am ding dong ditching on 40. I like the idea of ding dong ditching because I feel young. I like the thrill of running up to someones door ringing the bell and running like a bat out of hell so I am not caught!
This brings me to the sillyness at the airport. Lauren and Thomas went to their Dad's Christmas morning to spend their week with him. I picked up a shift at the airport so my coworker could stay home with her children. It was a long yet fun day goofing off as our flights were not full. After work we all decided to play wii at a girls house (yes I was the oldest one....there was an 18 yr old, 19 yr old, 20 yr old, 21 yr old and 24yr old). I came up with the bright idea of saran wrapping someone's house. We decided on one of the guys that work on the ramp because he lives in a small place. After several stops we found saran wrap (turns out Walgreens is open 24 hours...even on Christmas). We got 3 rolls and planned to wrap his home so he couldn't get out of his front door! By the way we were all sober!! After the wrap was in place a couple people banged on the door for the guy to come out and after seeing the door hit the saran wrap we jetted. I might have peed my pants because I was laughing so hard (darn weak muscles from having kids)! The next day we all pretended like we were not together and waited to see if he would say anything to us. It didn't take long for our phones to start beeping with texts saying we did it but we stayed strong and denied all dealings. In fact they were questioning what kind of car I drove and i actually said what kind! Not the smartest thing to do. That night a bunch of people came over to my house to watch a movie and hang out after work. This was the 2nd late night for me in a row...I couldn't hang...so I went to bed at 3am and told the kids (yeah I have to say kids because they are sooo much younger than me) to lock up when they leave. I woke up late sunday hurrying around to get ready for Cardinals tail gating with one of my best friends and her brother's friends. I love Cardinals and tail gating! I run to my car and what do I see???? I had been hit by the saran wrap fairy. Yes, my car was wrapped up like a Christmas present. Of course I took a picture because I knew Gina wouldn't believe I was late because I had to unwrap my car. LOL Once I was in my car I called the ramp boy thinking he had done it. I thought it was funny but would have liked for them to ring my bell the night before so I wasn't late to tail gate. He said he didn't do it and as we talked I realized that my friend (who was with me when we originally did the guy's house and was at my house till 3am the night before) had did it to me after all! You would think it would stop there but of course not. Two days later we were working again and decided to get there early to pass along the love to another ramp guy. We thought we were so sly. We were so quiet and stayed low so no one would hear us until we heard "Are you girls having fun?" BAH OMG It was Marco the guy whose car we were wrapping! His friend happened to be arriving to work as we pulled up to do the car. He sat in his car watching us while he called Marco to come to his car in the parking garage. I almost peed my pants! As we worked we wondered what will happen next! Will they get us back? As we headed to my friends truck we were laughing about getting caught then our mouths dropped as we saw Whitney's truck! Yeah they got her back...every window was whited out with window paint and saran wrap around some of the vehicle. I will say they did a great job. I was laughing so hard because in one window there was a fallic symbol and one of the girls (19 yrs old) who is very innocent was sitting by it. I could not stop laughing. Yes you can imagaine I was laughing so hard I almost peed my pants again! You would think the story was done here right as we had all been hit by the saran wrap fairy. Well of course not it has to continue. I walk out to my car this past week to see rainbows all over every window! Although it was humorous I was a bit annoyed because I needed to pick up my kids but couldn't drive. So I had to stop at the gas station first to clean my windows. Now many of you may think this is juvenile and yes it is but at least it is harmless fun. Many of you might think I should turn the other cheek. But come on this friend of mine is a stinker. She is now hitting all of her friends cars so it is time for her to go down. I have been plotting what I will do to take her down. I have a plan but will not post till it has been completed in case she is reading this:) So yes I am turning 37 but I realize it is just a number. I am still as fun and crazy as I always have been. And that is the beauty of life. I can be a fun and crazy kid yet be a professional, a mother and a friend to people of all ages. I love the opportunity to show my children that when it is time to be serious I can be but when it is time to have fun that hands down I can have fun even if it is saran wrapping cars:)
This brings me to the sillyness at the airport. Lauren and Thomas went to their Dad's Christmas morning to spend their week with him. I picked up a shift at the airport so my coworker could stay home with her children. It was a long yet fun day goofing off as our flights were not full. After work we all decided to play wii at a girls house (yes I was the oldest one....there was an 18 yr old, 19 yr old, 20 yr old, 21 yr old and 24yr old). I came up with the bright idea of saran wrapping someone's house. We decided on one of the guys that work on the ramp because he lives in a small place. After several stops we found saran wrap (turns out Walgreens is open 24 hours...even on Christmas). We got 3 rolls and planned to wrap his home so he couldn't get out of his front door! By the way we were all sober!! After the wrap was in place a couple people banged on the door for the guy to come out and after seeing the door hit the saran wrap we jetted. I might have peed my pants because I was laughing so hard (darn weak muscles from having kids)! The next day we all pretended like we were not together and waited to see if he would say anything to us. It didn't take long for our phones to start beeping with texts saying we did it but we stayed strong and denied all dealings. In fact they were questioning what kind of car I drove and i actually said what kind! Not the smartest thing to do. That night a bunch of people came over to my house to watch a movie and hang out after work. This was the 2nd late night for me in a row...I couldn't hang...so I went to bed at 3am and told the kids (yeah I have to say kids because they are sooo much younger than me) to lock up when they leave. I woke up late sunday hurrying around to get ready for Cardinals tail gating with one of my best friends and her brother's friends. I love Cardinals and tail gating! I run to my car and what do I see???? I had been hit by the saran wrap fairy. Yes, my car was wrapped up like a Christmas present. Of course I took a picture because I knew Gina wouldn't believe I was late because I had to unwrap my car. LOL Once I was in my car I called the ramp boy thinking he had done it. I thought it was funny but would have liked for them to ring my bell the night before so I wasn't late to tail gate. He said he didn't do it and as we talked I realized that my friend (who was with me when we originally did the guy's house and was at my house till 3am the night before) had did it to me after all! You would think it would stop there but of course not. Two days later we were working again and decided to get there early to pass along the love to another ramp guy. We thought we were so sly. We were so quiet and stayed low so no one would hear us until we heard "Are you girls having fun?" BAH OMG It was Marco the guy whose car we were wrapping! His friend happened to be arriving to work as we pulled up to do the car. He sat in his car watching us while he called Marco to come to his car in the parking garage. I almost peed my pants! As we worked we wondered what will happen next! Will they get us back? As we headed to my friends truck we were laughing about getting caught then our mouths dropped as we saw Whitney's truck! Yeah they got her back...every window was whited out with window paint and saran wrap around some of the vehicle. I will say they did a great job. I was laughing so hard because in one window there was a fallic symbol and one of the girls (19 yrs old) who is very innocent was sitting by it. I could not stop laughing. Yes you can imagaine I was laughing so hard I almost peed my pants again! You would think the story was done here right as we had all been hit by the saran wrap fairy. Well of course not it has to continue. I walk out to my car this past week to see rainbows all over every window! Although it was humorous I was a bit annoyed because I needed to pick up my kids but couldn't drive. So I had to stop at the gas station first to clean my windows. Now many of you may think this is juvenile and yes it is but at least it is harmless fun. Many of you might think I should turn the other cheek. But come on this friend of mine is a stinker. She is now hitting all of her friends cars so it is time for her to go down. I have been plotting what I will do to take her down. I have a plan but will not post till it has been completed in case she is reading this:) So yes I am turning 37 but I realize it is just a number. I am still as fun and crazy as I always have been. And that is the beauty of life. I can be a fun and crazy kid yet be a professional, a mother and a friend to people of all ages. I love the opportunity to show my children that when it is time to be serious I can be but when it is time to have fun that hands down I can have fun even if it is saran wrapping cars:)
Monday, January 11, 2010
always something...
Being a single Mom has its challenges! I dread the morning fighting to get the kids up, dressed, breakfast and out the door all before they are late for school. I dread the evening fighting of getting them ready for bed, teeth brushed and in bed at a reasonable hour. Being a single parent I am the one in charge of the day and night routine. It can be exhausting. It is not only me moving them along but then they like to bug each other to the point someone gets hurt or cries. At times I feel like all I do is yell at them to do what they are expected to do and to knock off being mean to each other.
I remember when I dreamed of having a family I thought of these wonderful bonding times of playing together in the snow, baking cookies and there was so much love and kindness in the air. We were the idea family. Everyone wanted to hang out at our house. I was calm, cool and collected all the time. We hosted parties and the children all got along so great it was like heaven. Well reality hit and where is all the bliss. What happened to the kids that could help mom and play without arguing over everything. From who gets to sit next to Mom on the couch to who gets to take a bath first. It feels like I am a referre and I have games all day every day. And to top it off my 6 year response to getting in trouble is "You hate me!". A statement that I am so done hearing.
Report cards came out today and I was so worried about how many tardies the kids had because we are always running late. I was more worried about how many tardies, because that reflects on me, than I was on what kind of grades they got this quarter. It is because I want to be preceived as the perfect single Mom. I can do it all. Which I can but it just happens to be all half assedly done. But it is done! Although if I really think about it poor grades really does reflect on me as well. Hmmm well crap!
Really do these teachers understand how challenging it is for parents who work full time to get home make dinner, do homework and baths and get to bed on time so they are not late to school the next day? It is a seriously tough job to do all that. It takes a lot of yelling...at least at our house! I tell the kids that I should only have to tell them to do something one time but it always ends up being 5 or 6 times and by then I am screaming at them to get it done. I wonder all the time if the neighbors can hear me! My new years resolution was to not yell so much but that has gone out the window. Tomorrow I start it again. I will not yell I will not yell I will not yell!! Here is to a new morning full of love and kindness in the air:)
I remember when I dreamed of having a family I thought of these wonderful bonding times of playing together in the snow, baking cookies and there was so much love and kindness in the air. We were the idea family. Everyone wanted to hang out at our house. I was calm, cool and collected all the time. We hosted parties and the children all got along so great it was like heaven. Well reality hit and where is all the bliss. What happened to the kids that could help mom and play without arguing over everything. From who gets to sit next to Mom on the couch to who gets to take a bath first. It feels like I am a referre and I have games all day every day. And to top it off my 6 year response to getting in trouble is "You hate me!". A statement that I am so done hearing.
Report cards came out today and I was so worried about how many tardies the kids had because we are always running late. I was more worried about how many tardies, because that reflects on me, than I was on what kind of grades they got this quarter. It is because I want to be preceived as the perfect single Mom. I can do it all. Which I can but it just happens to be all half assedly done. But it is done! Although if I really think about it poor grades really does reflect on me as well. Hmmm well crap!
Really do these teachers understand how challenging it is for parents who work full time to get home make dinner, do homework and baths and get to bed on time so they are not late to school the next day? It is a seriously tough job to do all that. It takes a lot of yelling...at least at our house! I tell the kids that I should only have to tell them to do something one time but it always ends up being 5 or 6 times and by then I am screaming at them to get it done. I wonder all the time if the neighbors can hear me! My new years resolution was to not yell so much but that has gone out the window. Tomorrow I start it again. I will not yell I will not yell I will not yell!! Here is to a new morning full of love and kindness in the air:)
Monday, January 4, 2010
New Year same story
Happy 2010, a new year. I always like the thought of a new year starting. I have the ideal that on January 1st life magically changes and will be perfect. I am 100% caught up on every ounce of work in my personal and work life, my children are so well behaved that when we are taking our family walk I can hear the neighbors whispering that their Mom is amazing, the gorgeous, single, rich men adore me and all I have to do is decide who I should love. Then January 1, 2010 arrived and I hear Lauren asking if she can make breakfast for us all and she promises to clean up the mess she makes as I hear the eggs hitting the floor. Thomas is begging me to play batman lego wii with him as he is yelling at his sister to stop touching him. And as I walk into the greatroom yelling at the kids to clean up the mess and leave each other alone (I believe my neighbors may think all I do is yell) I look to my left and see.....a mound of files that need to have something done to them last week, last month, last year. Then I wondered if it could possibly be a new year.
Since my ideal and my reality are not the same I will have to do some things to make them become friends. New Years Resolutions it is a right of passage into the year. This year I plan to lose (I bet you can guess) weight, eat healthier, not yell so much at the kids, make sure I get my work done right away and travel more. Today, kids were late to school and I yelled that them to brush their teeth and put on socks and shoes. I ate yummy but unhealthy food and did not work out. But I did do work that was due today and attempted a few things for tomorrow and I did travel in my car to the office and school but that wasn't what i was hoping for when planning to travel.
Since my ideal and my reality are not the same I will have to do some things to make them become friends. New Years Resolutions it is a right of passage into the year. This year I plan to lose (I bet you can guess) weight, eat healthier, not yell so much at the kids, make sure I get my work done right away and travel more. Today, kids were late to school and I yelled that them to brush their teeth and put on socks and shoes. I ate yummy but unhealthy food and did not work out. But I did do work that was due today and attempted a few things for tomorrow and I did travel in my car to the office and school but that wasn't what i was hoping for when planning to travel.
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